I Am Not Living Under A Bridge….
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I Am Not Living Under A Bridge….
Hey Taverneers. Many of you have, along with your prayers, love, support, and kind words, encouraged me to “take care of myself.” I’m sure Trish is sending blessings to you for so doing. Everything in my life that would keep the average citizen from thinking me a homeless derelict was of Trish’s doing. She made me eat regularly, take my vitamins and medicines, and (mostly) dress in clothes that didn’t look like someone’s patched together cleaning rags. Trish married a hobo, and did her best to civilize him (me). There is a touch of irony here. From my earliest memories I always aspired to be a railroad hobo. My heroes were tramps, vagabonds, incurable wanderers, and outlaws. My first friend was Mack, the garbage man. He was a big, black man, who wore a captain’s hat and always had the stub of a cigar sticking out of his mouth, and he was my buddy. At 3 years of age I’d be waiting for the trash truck to show up, so Mack and I could talk for a few minutes. I’m sure my parent’s aspirations of a son who would become a doctor or a lawyer went right down the toilet. I’m glad kids aren’t like automobiles where you can just take them back to the dealership and trade them in for something else. My disdain of authority began in the 1st grade. I was born left handed, and had what had to have been an ancient escaped Nazi for a teacher, whose mission in life was to break my left handedness. She was of the old school of thought that left handed children were of the devil. Left in Latin is “sinister.” In days of old, left handed children were killed for so being, and I’m sure she regretted not having lived in that time. She did her best to browbeat, humiliate, and torture me into being right handed. She ultimately failed, but I never got along with authority figures since. Later, going to school in the foothills of the Southern Appalachians, folklore and folk songs were a part of the curriculum. In song class one day when I was in the 4th grade, we sang Woodie Guthrie’s “So Long, It’s Been Good To Know You.” That was it; I was never worth a hoot in school again. The teacher would be writing the multiplication tables up on the chalkboard, I would hear the whistle of a distant train coming by town, and in my mind, I’d be on it and gone. I was always in trouble for daydreaming in class. There were always parent-troubling remarks on my report cards. That I even graduated from high school and college should be enough to make an atheist believe in God. I wasn’t stupid; it’s just that they were always wanting to teach me stuff I never wanted to learn. It’s hard in modern society, being a child mystic whose ambition was to ride the rails. It was written of Woodie Guthrie that, “…he just couldn’t be cured of wandering off.” I read that when I was in my 20’s, and thought, “That’s my diagnosis, at least mentally.” Well, if that was my disease, Trish was the cure…or at least the treatment that kept the symptoms at bay. Thankfully I have lots of wonderful family, extended family, and friends (all of whom y’all are a part) who are taking up Trish’s mantle, and making sure this old boy eats, takes his medicines, and doesn’t sleep in a cardboard box under a bridge. My heart and spirit have taken a huge kidney punch. If not for the outpouring of love, prayers, kindnesses, and words of comfort and wisdom, I’m not sure I’d be here to write this. This whole experience will, no doubt, leave a mark. But knowing the love and support I’ve found with you all, I feel better about the future, and I’m using my cardboard boxes for hauling away trash rather than a bedroom. Thank you for being here. It’s people like you that keep God from destroying the world….
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